bandages don't fix bullet hole.

or the first just wounded you.  you were bleeding but still alive. now you wonder if they will miss again. but there is a little part of you hopes that they don't miss this time.


For me, there are only 2 types of guy. The guy who loves his girl and the guy who doesn't.
there is no romantic, sweet, loving, caring, jealousy, freaky, protective guy. All the caring and loving things is not an option in a relationship. It's what you do automatically to someone you love. and so does the mean and hurtful things. You won't do that to someone you love. although we all did bad things in life.

Maybe it is true, people don't get second chance for the same mistake.

I've learned that I can't be falling apart because i got hurt and expect people to understand and give me some slack. no. real world doesn't work that way. I have to keep it all together, fake a smile and act like everything is fine. When I lose control and accidentally pour it to people, it's my fault if they get mad and hate me. so i will just apologise. Not blaming them, not blaming me either, but can I blame it to the one who hurt me? this is not fair for me.
And i've learned that you can't blame people for hurting you. maybe you are just not that good of a person or you are just not lovable. Nobody loves you.