Love me?

How can you hope that someone will love you when you can't even love yourself?

It's funny sometimes how we want things to be like what we want it to be yet we don't even do anything to make it happen.
Like you want to be skinny but keep eating like a pig and after you just feel disgusted by yourself but keep doing it all over again. Don't you just hate yourself and just wanna die?

You are broken. You are so broken. You sink into the darkness you can't help yourself.
You want someone to help you. To be there for you. To fix you. To pull you out. You want someone you can tell your shame, your insecurities. Someone who loves you. Just loves you.

But how can you make someone loves you when you don't even love yourself? You can't even make you love you.

I've been told I love you multiple times before but no, none of them were real.